Wednesday, March 29, 2017

This song is so sweet

sooooooooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

Thursday, March 23, 2017

It is surprisingly hard

to wake up thinking "what am I going to do today to make myself happy"

you are the most important person in your life

and if you can figure out what to do to make yourself happier

then probably we have a problem

being focused on all the things in the world

and ignoring your own needs and desires

but hey

reorganizing your life takes some time

and I am willing to give it to myself :)

as a soundtrack to that thought

here is my super sweet Brian Fallon

I lost most of myself pleasing everyone
I had to learn how to begin again
It’s alright, move on

I can almost hear the sound of crushing hopes

hopes, that new Linkin Park would be more like old Linkin Park

and if after "Heavy" I had a hope, that maybe they use that song to attract more people to them

to earn more money

then after the second release I gave up

remember that disaster?

cliché song with cliché video with cliché meaning and cliché vibe

here is the second one

if this is Battle symphony, we are losing the war

Want to have a good laugh?

I highly recommend watching Santa Clarita Diet

I have to say, though, the trailer is bad

it is baaaaaaaaad

when I saw it I had no intentions to watch that series

but good comments on one russian page made it's work

and I decided to try it out

aaaaaaaand I laaaaaaaaaaaaaughed like some sort of mentally challenged person

it is an extremely dark and sometimes disgusting humour

but in the polished modern world when you can't say what you want it is like a ray of light


not for kids

contains a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot of curse words

a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot


if you prefer Russian version - the best one is from NewStudio

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

I do not drink alcohol

so I have absolutely no idea from where my love towards songs about alcohol comes from


I have an inner Irish pirate in me


here is the Finnish band Korpiklaani

they aaaaaare aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawesome

one of the best shows I've been to


Well, hello there, Jake Gyllenhaal

Thursday, March 16, 2017

You can find wisdom in unexpected places

I am watching Girls tv show and let's face it

it is very


specific :)


in the last episode I heard one extremely interesting life coaching advice

something like: every morning after you wake up think: what would I do today to make myself happy?

like whaaaaaaaaaat

I never thought about that

I know, that I am emotional trash can

if some of my friends have some problem they throw it into me

it is good sometimes to feel, that you can help people

but lately I realized I am tired of that

people complain and then are angry if I do not share their opinion

or if I say: you complain too much

all that crap happens: oh, okay, if you don't want to hear about it, then I will talk only about interesting things to you

you know what?

after that we don't talk for about a week or so

my record was half a year

and not with one person, no, apparently it is a girl's thing

I do that too sometimes (when I don't get what I expected to get, I switch on silent treatment)

but they rarely ask: and how are you doing, Jana?

I have a lot of shit going on in my head

and sometimes I do want to spill it out

but I won't

I am fighting my own battles and even though I need some help


I am perfectly fine :)


since I got tired of pleasuring other people I took that advice very seriously

What would I do today to make MYSELF happy?

such an easy question

such a variety of possible answers

I should had gone into "me-me-me" mode a long time ago

firstly I will make myself happy, and only if I have some time left, I will make you happier

not the other way around


what would YOU do today to make yourself happier?

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Wanna have a day full of adventures for free?

I have a solution!

Leave your phone at home!!!

those were the most helpless I felt in a looooong time

it started with the milk

Every morning I drink a glass of milk (+glass of juice +glass of yoghurt, I drink a looooooooot in the morning)

in the evening looking through the products in the fridge I understood that I run out of milk, so I went to the nearest store to get one

I was already dressed up, when I noticed I left both of my phones on the other side of the room

well, I am a lazy ass, I was already in my boots and I had no desire to take them off, so I decided, meh, the store is 5 minutes away, I don't need a phone for going this close

went to the store

they did not have the type of milk I am drinking and I did not want to take the ones they had (they taste so baaaad), so I decided to go the to big store which is 15 minutes away if you are going by bus

went to the bust stop

decided to check the timetable from my phone

remembered that I left the phones at home

so I went to check the paper timetables on the bus stop

froze for a moment, because I had absolutely no idea what time is it


what was the last time you felt like if you are completely helpless?

mine was on the bus stop :)

you look at the paper and have no idea when the bus comes

you have no idea what time it is

I was already moving toward home to take the phones, when I saw the bus coming

not the one I needed

but the one that goes to the railway station

and they have clocks there

you see, I  live in the middle of nowhere, in the evenings buses here come once in 30 minutes (two buses come almost at the same time and then you wait for half an hour if you missed those ones), so I could not miss a chance to go to the store

and I took my chance

finally got to the shop and bought my milk

the way back home was even more complicated :)

I have three buses I can take

each one of them are on different railway stations

I usually check my phone to know which comes first and what on what station should I be going off the train


there are clocks in the shop and timetables, but my only bus, that comes from that place was in 40 minutes

not cool

so I decided to play russian roulette and pick one station of the two that I had

picked the one

the bus was in 30 minutes

cursed like a little sailor, took the train and went to another station (those stations are located very close to each other, when you go by train)

waited the train for 10 minutes

then another 15 minutes for a bus

was close to being frozen

and very angry

how do people live without phones now?



if such a simple action like going for groceries take so much time and so much nerves


I am wondering now, is it possible to live in a big city when you have no phone

I am planning to make phone free days

but then again

I need to buy hand watches

and alarm clock

and write down bus timetables from every bus stops that I use

and that I need only to wake up in the weekend morning and go to the store

I have no idea how people now communicate with the world without phones

if you take away the computers too

then it would be hard as hell

but interesting at the same time

or take it to another level

and live one single day without electricity in the city


life can be so interesting without even spending money to make it interesting

we should play that middle age game


open fire and no electricity

but first

where do people buy alarm clocks now?


Monday, March 13, 2017

I understood two words out of that one sentence

the words are: final stage :)

the sentence is:
Diatoms are diplonts with meiosis in the final stage of gametogenesis.

biology was never my favourite subject


you know I read a lot

but why the hell am I reading "Reproductive biology of plants" I have absolutely no idea :)

just because I can, I guess


dear friends, who probably understood the same two words as I did

let's find out what that evil sentence is all about
Diatoms are a major group of algae, and are among the most common types of phytoplankton
see, it is already getting better

we all know what phytoplankton is and now I know that diatoms are pretty much just super tiny algae

here is the pic

looking like a boat waffle :)

going on
Diplont - an animal or plant that has the diploid number of chromosomes in its somatic cells
aaaand for those of you, who forgot: Diploid - Of a cell, having a pair of each type of chromosome, one of the pair being derived from the ovum and the other from the spermatozoon. Most somatic cells of higher organisms are diploid.

so far we have super tiny algae with regular pairs of chromosomes
Meiosis - is a specialized type of cell division that reduces the chromosome number by half, creating four haploid cells, each genetically distinct from the parent cell that gave rise to them
that meaning, that we now have only the half of the chromosomes
Gametogenesis is the development of diploid germ cells into haploid eggs or sperm
the whole pretty much means that our super tiny algae's reproduction is binary fission (they are just dividing for reproduction)

feeling getting smarter?

I do:)

I really need to update my biology knowledge, apparently I forgot almost everything :)