Saturday, July 27, 2013

Long Forgotten Songs

I know what CD I will buy next

well, it seems to me, that all of those few CD's that I have, mainly belong to Rise Against:)

I had seen the track list and I have to say, that 90% of those songs are in my playlist on a daily basis:) but hey, there are several new songs for me as well:)

but let's hear one of those old "forgotten" songs:

may be new Rise Against fans will know them better, when they hear all those not so popular songs:)


that is the exact one word that I know in French without using google

why do I know it? because yesterday, while watching some world music charts, I saw a sneak peek of the video, that instantly got my attention, so I watched it full version

and I was not disappointed:

I love the music (but not that squeaking sound) and especially the beat

and very interesting lyrics

I am a little bit jealous of that guy, because imagine how much he loved her, if he feels like that right now, so disappointed in love

and yes, I wanna hug him and make him a cup of tea:)

it is good, that my mind still reacts to music so intense

that means, that after all of that love crap drama, I still have some humanity, and I'm not a complete robot

Formidable, isn't it?



they almost all do that

I mean starting working day at 7:)

it is pretty common in Finland

I like my job, I don't love it yet, because I do not really wanna go building a railway road in the middle of nowhere, when I can work in Helsinki

and I reeeeally wanna stay here, because my partner is one of the most interesting people I had ever met and he already taught me a lot, he is that rare Rubik's cube type of man

but that's okay, people need railways as well:)

I'm sorry, that I keep this place little bit dead, but I just need some time to rearrange my body to the harsh reality of waking up at 4:30


wanna know what useful I learned today? Washing liquids actually work, when you wash your clothes by hands

like whaaaaat

I am that spoiled person, who always had a washing machine and all I had to do, was to put some Tide into machine and load the laundry

but since I don't have that privilege now, I am using old method, you know, the manual one, when you use your hands and today I felt like Harry Potter, because I had a huge stain on my Estonian jersey and it is goooooone, it is completely goooooooone, and never any washing machine could have wash it away thaat well

what kind of magic it is?


life is full of surprises

Monday, July 22, 2013

It is just not

it is just not so perfectly perfect as I thought it would be


I'm in Finland, living in the most beautiful flat that I found for the money that I had

it is sooooooo close to the sea, like 500m

but I'm not so excited about the work

tooooooonnnnnssss of documents that I need to send every week and every month and tooooons of safety cards and papers for that, it seems like if Finland is way too German like

I do not know whether it is bad or not

and my work day starts not at 8 like all the white people have, and not at 9, like most of the Finnish people have, nooooo, it begins at 7


and I live in the most beautiful flat one hour away

do the math, when do I have to wake up:)

yup, if you call me at 22.00 I will most likely be already sleeping:)

but then again, it was me, who wanted to work

another reason to not be so exited about moving is the impossible high cost of public transport

I have bought 2 weeks card for 72 euros

yup, you read it right, two weeks for so much

That's because I live in Espoo and I have to take a bus to Helsinki, then change a bus for metro and after that take another bus to Tuusula/Kerava and that is two zone rides, that cost so much

that would be great to explore the vicinity, visiting Vantaa and all the little towns next to it, but, but, buuuuut, my day starts at 4:30 and ends at 22.00, I simply won't have any time, money or strength to do that

and that is sad

very sad indeed

but hey, I live in the most beautiful flat in the most beautiful place:)

and I have contract for 5,5 months, which I can end pretty much any time I want

and Estonia is only 2 hours away, if I would want to escape


I am bit sad, that everything is not as perfect as I planned

but look at the clock, I need to drink some juice and go to bed



Wednesday, July 17, 2013

The King Jana


I almost forgot, that I'm The King:)))

I even have a crown

here is The King:

with a crown!


but because of my inability to use my camera properly, I once again look like a ghost, I tried to darken it a bit, but not really successful

sorry about that

but almighty can help with that

let me introduce you

the updated version of pale King:

buuuurning aliiiive :)

I wish I could use that photo in my documents:)

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Happily Ever After

one girlie song I really love:

Oh, happily ever after, wouldn’t you know, wouldn’t you know.
Oh, skip to the ending, who’d like to know, I’d like to know.
Author of the moment, can you tell me, do I end up, do I end up happy?
that song is just way way too cute


sing along :)


I'm not a big movie person

I rarely watch movies

I rarely like movies (M. Night Shyamalan is the greatest exception)

but I do love trains

trains excite me

and I do love gorgeous blond boys with blue eyes:)

so when my sister gave my father this DVD for him to watch, I took it from him and watched it

and I loooooooooved it

and I admit, that for first ten minutes I thought woooooooow, awesome trains and woooooooooooooooow the most handsome man on planet Earth

but after 10 minutes you don't even think about how incredibly hot Chris Pine is you just start worrying about that runaway train

I seriously thought "pleeeease don't kill the train, just stop it"

and what I loved about that movie, is that just when I thought "but why had not they tried that" they did that in the next moment in the movie:)

there were some really sad moments in the movie and I think, that they could have turn more attention to that, but come on, if movie director can make you feeling sorry for A TRAIN then it is indeed good movie:)


Sunday, July 14, 2013

For no reason at all

I have this song stuck in my head today:

Apparently I'm in Sinatra mood today :)


The power of the beard

I was looking today through some fashion pages and noticed one quite unexpected thing

Robert Pattinson is actually a pretty handsome man, when he wears a beard

just look at him with baby face:

gaaaaaay face

but add some beard and magic happens:

he actually looks like a man

like some strong man, not some fabulous gay

therefore, I'm sorry Robert Pattinson that I judged you by your appearance in Twilight and labeled you gay

That was wrong and I'm sorry

some men were born to wear a beard:)

*but not all

Friday, July 12, 2013

One more week


as I thought

I am staying in Estonia for one more week, because I had not been able to find an apartment:(

well, I had three responses and two of them were from men looking for women to live together in one flat

thaaaat's kinda weird, because I thought they were women, until I saw their names:)

no, thank you, but I prefer not to live with some Arabian man in one apartment:)

cultural differences, you know:)

I had one response from very lovely girl who lives in a house next to airport and that house is to die for that awesome it is

but I do not have driver's license and therefore I will have to spend like three hours to get to the office, because there is no normal public transport connection in that area :(

I have the best boss ever, because he allowed me to start working one week later

Thank you!


Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Drowning Pool

Those guys deserve much more attention:

I love aggressive songs


Nikola and Jana

what do Nikola Tesla and Jana have in common?

Birthday date!!!!

July 10th

I had not knew that until today:)

in some states in America it is official Nikola Tesla Day

how awesome is that?

I wanna have my own celebration day as well

I wanna people to call me "The genius who lit the world" too

so that will be my another plan in "the bucket list"

to have my own day celebrated nationally


but well, Tesla is mega mind and created a lot, while I'm still pretty much useless


useless as for now:)

but hopefully not for long

Happy Birthday to us!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

to meeeeeeee!!!


I'm 27 now


the year, that I had waited for so long

I'm somehow sure, that I either will be very happy or very dead on my 27th year

both options suit me:)

I decided to ditch myself and I won't have any celebration with anybody

not even with my family:)

I just don't wanna share my 27

it is aaaallll miiiiiine


Happy birthday to me!!!

and I got so many good messages from my friends:)

not like happy birthday, wish you the best, naaaaay, very specific and personal wishes and I love it:)

Thank you all!!!

I don't have a lot of friends, but those who I have are definitely the best!


and they remember when my birthday is!

even if they put some sort of a reminder on their phones, that means they care enough:)

Thank you!!!

Happy Birthday to meeeeeeee



Sunday, July 7, 2013

Frank Turner

I definitely have a musical crush on him

sing along:

Just give me one fine day of plain sailing weather
And I can fuck up anything, anything.
I love him



Saturday, July 6, 2013


some songs just never get old:)

3 Doors Down - Kryptonite

I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
But I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon

I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don’t mind what happens now and then
As long as you’ll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might

You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be there
Holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
If I go crazy then will you still call me Supermaaaaaaan?

try to remember any of today's top 10 songs (yes, I'm talking about Daft crap) in 13 years:)

as loooong as you'll be my friiiiend at the eeeend

I got the job!


didn't want to tell you before, but several weeks ago I got the answer to my application and this Wednesday I went to Finland to job interview

and I got the job:)

I had an interview on a language that I had learned for 5 months and I got the job and I actually understood somewhat 70% of the words he said and 100% of the sentence meaning:)

that was soooooo coooooooool

the working place is situated in Tuusula and thats like in the middle of nowhere


in the woods:)))

I'm starting from July 15, but it seems to me I will not be able to get all of the paperwork done and may be I must postpone the start day for a week

if somebody want to go to Finland next Tuesday or Wednesday, text me, let's go together :) or even better, if somebody I personally know want to live in Finland, lets rent two bedroom apartment together, that is actually pretty cheap

as for now I'm looking for an apartment in Vantaa or Tuusula, but I had not found absolutely nothing for a reasonable price

I'm sorry, but paying 500-600 for 1 bedroom is just doesn't make any sense

so I'm thinking to stay in some doubtful place looking like a prison cell, but it is 400 a month :) with shared bathroom :)))

I don't know, I just can't really realize, that I'm actually leaving Estonia for good


but I had put that mental note long time ago, that if by 27 I won't find my love, then I give up and will focus on the job


my 27th birthday comes in Wednesday

I doubt that I will find it:)

and sometimes that just happens, so I will focus on earning money in the country of beautiful white man and hockey:)

I will miss you

all of you

but it is not like if I'm dying

I can always come back

but will I?


We got Bobrovsky!!!

and I got the job

I'm back :)

we signed Bob for two more years:)

that was a good decision, Bobrovsky!!!

and in other hockey news

we have a new big bear in the team!!!

welcome to the team, Nathan Horton!!!

he is not as big as our previous captain Nash, but he is still big:)

and some bad news

Alfredsson left Ottawa Senators

oh, no, not retired, nooooo, he left his team and went to Detroit

yes, you read it right, the man who played his entire career in one team, the man who was the captain of that team for sooooo many yeeeeears

and what is even more sad, that it was not the team that kicked him out, no, he left because :
I had not won a Stanley Cup and that’s a big priority for me
I always had sympathy for Alfie, because every man who plays his whole career in one team will have that big piece of my heart and respect

but as from now, I'm sorry Detroit, but I hope you will not even go to the playoffs

I think, that there must be a new word used for such captains - craptains, Nash was our craptain, Alfredsson was Ottawa's craptain

I'm sorry, but since when did captain patch mean nothing to the man who wears it?

basically when people like Nash and Alfie sign the contract with other team that is the process of signing the paper with big red letters saying " I WAS A CRAPTAIN AND I HAD NOT DONE ENOUGH TO BRING MY TEAM TO STANLEY CUP and now I'm signing with another team to become their bitch, just because I think they have more chances to win the Cup"

I do not understand it at all, like come oooon, Captain patch means something more, than just a C letter on your jersey

and I'm sad, that some captains don't understand it


Columbus Blue Jackets - We Will Win!!!!