Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Cuteness overdose


Monday, October 29, 2012

I can't do absolutely nothing with it

I am attracted to men in black coats:)

and if man is in the black coat and bald, then you will surely get some of my "aaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" :

One of us

I think religion is a big lie for weak people

but daaaaaaaamn I love their songs


it is old, but still good

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Liars, lies and family

Sometimes you are getting tired of your life so much, that you just wanna put your head on the table and shoot your brains out

this day is one of those kind of days

I'm already ok with the fact, that friends and people I know lie to me way too often

but family?


amount of lies in my family is way too high

and what is more disturbing, is that they talk "don't tell *** (insert family member here) that **** did *****

I always thought that my family is the best family in the world

but somehow it is falling apart, because of the increasing lies

even my mom lies to me

the only non liar in my family so far is my dad, it seems to me, that he doesn't care if he hurt somebody's feelings and if he doesn't like something, he will tell you that right into face

and I respect that a lot

of course if he is not a liar like the rest :)

so, yeah

when I ask "why did you lie to me,  and I had to know about that from ***?" I never get any logical answer, what I understood is the meaning of  "I lied, because I didn't want to hurt your feelings" like what the eff, do you think that getting to know the truth from somebody else is not twice or even triple as hurtful?


you lie, because you are afraid of facing me or any other person

I think it is not even appropriate, when 40 year old calls 60 year old to complain about what 26 year old said to her (my words were not even rightly interpreted!!!)

so from now, if you wanna live in a perfect world, that revolves around you, and you may use your idiotic illness as an excuse for every little thing you can't (or should I write would not like) to do, then go ahead

I won't hurt your feelings no more

putting poker face on

just know, that if something happens to our mom, because of your inability to plan your life, then I will never forgive you

I may be the dumb overreacting ass, but hey, I'm good with it


*gone singing this song:

Friday, October 26, 2012

Die Haaaaaard

I somehow almost missed the announcement of die hard 5


or what is more accurate, I missed the announcement therefore this trailer:

was a complete surprise for me


I hate hate hate American movies that were filmed in Russia

it always look ugly and terrible to watch

but as long as Die Hard have Bruce Willis, I will watch every movie even if it is filmed in Moscow


and if you live in a parallel universe and hadn't seen Die hard movies, then watch this video and sing along:

I should put that song as a ringtone


Remember when we first met John McClane?
Argyle picked him up from the plane,
And took him down to Nakatomi Tower...
To meet with Holly.

He came to get her back and to be her man,
But Hans and his buddies fucked up the plan,
And that's about when everything went sour
At the Christmas party.

And the terrorists were over-zealous,
But it was sweet when they killed Ellis!
And, with a little help from Allen,
John McClane kicked ass!

We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die as hard as we can!

No one dies harder than John McClane,
Even when his wife's stuck on a plane
About to crash into the Potomac River...
On the eve of Christmas.

And airport security kicked him out,
But John McClane is just too damn proud,
And nothing could have made him not deliver...
'Cause that's his business!

And with a lot of fights and gunplay
He blew that plane up on the runway.
And, with a little help from Allen,
Holly's plane could land!

We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die as hard as we can!

Yippee-ki-yay, motherfucker!

No one dies harder than John McClane,
Saving all the passengers on the train.
But Simon wasn't clear with his intentions:
It was just a distraction!

And there was no way McClane could know
That Hans Gruber was Simon's bro.
And that's what made it "Die Hard: With A Vengeance"
With Samuel Jackson!

And the good cop wouldn't miss this,
Even though it wasn't Christmas.
He didn't get any help from Allen...
But only in part three!

We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die as hard as we can!

Finally we're back with John McClane
Now we got a choice, and the choice is plain:
We can live free or we can die hard,
As hard as we can.

From taking on a terrorist he's never met,
To taking on an F-35 jet,
With the greatest car explosions by far...
This sure looks sweet, man!

And we know what the basic gist is:
There ain't no Allen, and it's not Christmas.
We don't know but we're pretty sure that
John McClane kicks ass!

We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die, die hard!
We're gonna die, die, die as hard as we can!

Yippee-ki-yay, motherfucker!


I am absolutely not ashamed telling you, that I laughed not age appropriate when I saw this video:



the game is literally 3 weeks away and I still have no ticket

the ticket seller company hadn't answered me yet

(it is more than a week since I sent them a letter)

cooome ooooon, Finns

answer me

or does anybody know whether it is possible to buy a ticket online today, but get it printed in their R-kioskki  on the exact day the game is? can I have those 20 days delayed or would it be expired by then and put back on sale again? do they really have no possibility of buying pdf ticket?

I wanna see my TPS Turku

and sing hunajata song :)

Winter in October

it is snowing in Estonia!!!!

and not like one second there is snow and other there is autumn back


more like it is winter time!

imagine how happy I am:)

but it is kinda surreal

you have green/yellow/red trees and impossibly white snow under them:

now it is even more winter like:

how awesome is that?

and yes, my friends, it is time for this song:

happiest time of the year is coming:)

Thursday, October 25, 2012


I, like almost every single women out there, looooooooove Oriflame catalogs

my niece is consultant so we have catalogs whenever we want

and even though I think, that most of the men look kinda gayis there, I have my favorite one

whaaaat? beauty catalogs are not only for beauty products :)

here he is:

how perfectly handsome is he?


I do not know who is that male model and I somehow think, that I don't even wanna know, because if he is another gay, then I will be devastated:)

see, you can always find something interesting even in the beauty products catalog:)

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


I don't think so

today I had an appointment with my surgeon, and she said that my leg looks good, but I should use some moisturisers so my skin won't be so dry

okay said Jana and went straight to the beauty shop

and I wanted to buy one moisture lotion for quite a bit simply because I liked the package very much, but because I hadn't had a need for them before, I neved had bought it

today I had

and look at it:

hadn't noticed anything special?

well, remember my TPS Turku team?

who is the biggest star out there?

mr Mikko Koivu:)))

and what is the goal horn line?

"Hunajata, hunajata, hunajata mulle"

which gives us Koivu & Hunaja


that purchase was meant to be:)

My little confession

I don't like practically all of the biggest old rock stars out there

first of all, I don't understand how is it allowed to call that music rock

and how the hell did they get so popular

so, dear friends, bring your tomatoes, you may throw them at me

I don't like:
  • Beatles (I listened to the whole discography, and I kinda liked some songs, but not that much and way too few) and double confession: I never liked Yesterday (NEVER!!!)

I never understood why they were so popular, because, face it, their lyrics is easy, and there is nothing that special in the music or in the voice

  • Guns N' Roses, I never liked any of their songs and I'm sorry, but I think his voice is irritating

  • Scorpions, you are going to hate me for saying it, but I NEVER LIKED WIND OF CHANGE!!!! NEVER!!! but I put on my friendly face when everybody says how great that song is, and I think, that because of their constant tour in Russia with appearances in every freaking pop show, they do not deserve to be called rock, but some slightly heavier pop

  • Pink Floyd (I listened to the whole discography, and as long as I remember, not a single song I liked, seriously, it is some hell of the weird songs written by some junkies, I guess, with "deep" lyrics and "new sound" music) 

I can continue for a long time:) name a band (Queen, Europe etc) and I will say, it is extremely overrated

but it is not thaaaaaat baaaaad


I always liked AC/DC, I do think they sold out their souls for the money and fame, but at least they have great songs:)

and I even bought their Black Ice CD :)

and the band of my childhood is no Boney M, but ZZ Top:)


try not to hate me much:)

Monday, October 22, 2012








another reason to go to the game:)

I'm still waiting for the answer from client service with hockey tickets, because I hadn't found any information about possible pdf ticket, I really hope, that they will write me tomorrow "yes, of course we have pdf tickets, you can surely buy it from Estonia!"

the big optimist in me:)

like cooome ooooon

the best seats are already taken

let me watch the game in Helsinki!

with Mikko Koivu and Antero:)))


yesterday I finally decided to watch The walking dead series

as far as I remember I already wrote about the way I feel about zombies and survivors

in short: I will surely be the one who kill herself, because I won't be able to live in the world where even if they find the cure, can still be possibility, that tomorrow you wake up and the whole world is in panic


fighting for life have some boundaries for me

and yes, of course I had a nightmare about zombies today:)))

but back to The walking dead

I used to have troubles with understanding this picture:

now I can say, I watched the second episode only because I was intrigued  by "hey, dumbass"  in the end of the first one:)

I guess they know how to keep the audience

I will keep that show for the moments, when I wanna watch some brain free pop corn movie, because hey, if zombie apocalypse happen, I won't be the one who will fight for the life:)

I will be the one, who set the city on fire while dying with it:)

I guess I prefer watching something that can give me new information

remember Jericho?

I literally watched that show to learn more about nuclear bombs and how to escape radiation dangers


anyway, if you wanna watch some show while having "eeeeeeewwwww, that's disgusting" facial expression, then The walking dead is the best choice!


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

So adorable

that look on the face:))) cuteness overdose

but wait

there is more

the polar bear!!! :

seriously, I don't mind if he bites me, as long as he is cute like that:)

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Guess who is baaaack

my redneck in me


I will probably never understand how people listen to electro autotuned crap on a daily basis, when you have such amazing songs in almost every genre

Every storm runs, runs out of rain
Just like every dark night turns into day
Every heartache will fade away
Just like every storm runs, runs out of rain

 I hope you are not one of those brain washed electro lover


enjoy the music while you can!

Saturday, October 13, 2012



I decided to go not to Turku, but to Helsinki, because I'm not a rich student yet :)

already picked a date and a game

hadn't got the ticket yet, but with probability of 90%, dear Finns, wait for new TPS Turku fan on November 17th



now, when I watch all of those Finnish hockey highlights I am always happy when I hear the word, which meaning I know:) like yaaaay, I know that word, and that one and that one!!!

hopefully soon I will be able to understand the complete sentence:)))

and I was laughing like insane when I heard TPS goal horn:

like coooome oooon, guys:)))

I have feelings too, you know


love this song:

yeeees, I'm fluffy puffy piece of rainbow sometimes:)

such a sweet song:)

but despite the fact that it is very sweet and lovely song, it brings almost no emotions to me

yeah yeah

but I'm not a robot

I have that special song, that makes your brain bring back all of those good memories

and no

it is not Saviour (to my own surprise)

but yes

it is Rise Against


not a fluffy puffy song enough for a girl? dunno, may be, but that's the most emotional one for me:) every single time when I hear it, i see myself on that concert, in the crowd, screaming my lungs out with the words and loosing breath, because you are not capable of keeping all inside:)

to die for voice and band:)

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Hadn't post that for months





every single time gives me chills:)))

never gonna get tired of this song



Time traveling

I put my brain working on different problems, which are not connected to each other just to try it out

one of them is time traveling

you know, about my endless love towards Stephen Hawking, and he tried to have a party one day: Stephen Hawking held a party for time-travellers

brilliant idea :)

in the article (come on, lazy asses, open that link and read the whole article, it is interesting, I guarantee!) there were given reasons, why nobody showed up:

So why did Prof Hawking's party go off without a Big Bang?

Possible semi-scientific solutions to this include:

a) time travel is simply not possible

b) it is only possible to move forwards in time, not backwards

c) time travel can only occur from the date a time-travel machine is first built/switched on

d) time travel is possible, but no-one figures out how to do it, or they are simply too responsible to use it

d) we are in the 'original' universe, before travellers start meddling with the timeline

I believe in time traveling and I'm sure our civilization won't be extinct before we come up with that machine


here is the big but

I believe that our smart Universe is so smart, that it made a law of nature, that you can not travel to certain date in the past, if it may change anything in the future

so my theory is, that you can travel only way way way back in the past, when you cant really change anything significantly (it also explain all of those odd pictures on the cave walls with people looking like aliens, may be they were us from the future)

"This is due to another strange fact about the universe," writes Hawking -- the cosmic speed limit: 186,000 miles per second, or the speed of light.

"Nothing can exceed that speed. It's one of the best established principles in science," writes Hawking, but "believe it or not, traveling at near the speed of light transports you to the future."

"Imagine a track that goes right around Earth, a track for a super-fast train. Onboard are passengers with a one-way ticket to the future. The train begins to accelerate, faster and faster. Soon it's circling the Earth over and over again.

"To approach the speed of light means circling the Earth seven times a second. But no matter how much power the train has, it can never quite reach the speed of light, since the laws of physics forbid it.

"Instead, let's say it gets close," writes Hawking. "Something extraordinary happens: Time starts flowing slowly on board relative to the rest of the world, just like near the black hole, only more so. Everything on the train is in slow motion.
if our Universe is so smart, I'm pretty sure it solved the problem with time traveling:)

but, as my Mythbusters Adam said:

and if you can't prove, you can not move faster than the speed of light, it doesn't mean you can not possibly do that

or here is another way of traveling

and all of those radiation explosions

may be you can time travel, but, another big but:) but you will loose most of your I dunno how to say it, physical appearance (?), because of the fact that you are moving so fast

and maaaaay be

juuuust maaaaaaaay be

all of those ghost stories and other paranormal things are no less that our future blood brothers and sisters, who traveled back to out time, but because of that way, lost all of ways to show up to people or to change anything in the past


problem solved


I found the way to explain time travel

all I have to do now, is to write opinionated smart article to some science magazine and start building the time travel machine:)


I have serious troubles with being tolerant and ethical

Few days ago I had watched some documentary movie about Holocaust

about those millions Jews that were burnt there

or shot

or killed in other way

and here comes unethical part of the story

I watched that movie with my eyes wide open and for some reason, I had never thought about this, but now I can't understand, why hadn't they fought back ALL THE TIME???

all those stories, when the prisoners, built the gas chambers or dug holes or anything like that

and it was not like there were twice as much of those nazi bastards


not at all

yes, they were armed, yes, they were stronger

but what the hell?

may be they lived in other time, but imagine for a second, they brought you thereby trains and you were like some brainless zombie, who did what they told you to do, yes, I had read the stories about "if you won't come, we will kill your family and so", do you really think, they will stay alive after you will be gone to the death camp?

I just can add it up in my mind

there were whole families in those camps


I can't understand, what was their motivation to do any sort of work there, if I was there I would have been shot in the exact first place, because I would have try to escape that prison or to kill some guards or (if there were enough brave people there) I would have tried to organize some massive war between nazi crap and my people.

I have troubles imagining being a mom with a kid and watching like every single day, plenty of people were killed and you were building something to help doing that and silently waiting for your turn

especially, when you know, you hadn't done anything bad in your life

so yeah, I guess I'm not ethical at all, but I am sure, if you put Russians and Estonian in that camp, you will have some serious problems with your own security

and I had read some books about Russians too, they were the ones, that were constantly planning breakthroughs

so, dear Jew people, don't be mad at me, but can anybody explain, why were you ready to die, instead of fighting for your life and lives  of your family members and friends?

Some good new pop music

I may look small, but I have hell of a lot of storage place inside my brain

yes, even for pop music:)

for example, I love P!nk for yeeeeeeears now:)

I don't have any of her CDs, because, out of 5 song, 3 will be crap, but 2 will be pure pleasure

her last single is Try and this is one of those songs, that make you feel something good:

there have to be some niche between pop and rock for those type of songs

you gotta get up and try and try and try

so simple, so meaningful:)

the another new (for me) song is The xx - Angels

I'm not sure, how did I find that song

may be in some Billboard chart

nevertheless one of the most beautiful kinda love songs

aaaand my country love Taylor Swift

I'm sorry, but I just love that girl:)

I knew you were trouble:)


she is good:)

Little things that make me smile

I ain't even mad :)

I admit, I'm 100% moody jerk :)))

Age inappropriate

it's been awhile since I've been here

sorry about that

and I'm not gonna talk where I've been and what I've done

but somewhat week ago I woke up and sat in my bed having that "sudden clarity" moment

and that was not pleasant at all, not even a little bit

I guess it was something like people say, when you are dying you see the whole life in one moment, for me, (not dying at all) it was the things I said and done in past two years and it was hell of a hurtful thing to see

the only question I had "why the fuck did I let that happen???"

got the answer some time ago, I guess it was all because I had never been in love before, not in the childhood, not in the school, only when I grew old and was 24/25, yeeeeeah, it took me some time:) and all of those stupid things kids are doing when they fall in love for the first time I was doing being all that old:)

Age inappropriate things

sending billions of emails and text messages, giving presents, not expecting anything back, making scenes, when I felt hurt and other ugly things, that's not me, I hadn't felt good while doing it, it was just all wrong

but after that sudden clarity moment I realized, that, hey, congratulations, you are no longer kid in love with the wrong person for the first time, you are the woman in love with yourself and the whole world (especially the ice hockey part of it :)

no longer holding phone next to me, hoping he will send me message, no longer constantly checking e-mails, no longer making some unrealistic plans, no longer hoping, no longer imagining, just living my life:)

filled with billions of beautiful moments and dozens of beautiful people

I'm now sincerely sorry for my future man, I'm no longer a kid, who will be happy for every little tiny bit of attention :)

may be some people just supposed to be lonely:)

as for "its been awhile", you just can not miss the opportunity to share this song:

and I'm pretty sure my love towards bald men started from him:)

Thursday, October 4, 2012