Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Flaw - Only the Strong

sing along my friends, sing along:)
Seems I trusted another deceitful friend.
My fault.
Should've known the deal. 
Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer, for real.

Deceitful friend is very good description to one particular person :)

insiiiiiide we aaaaaalll knoooooooooow, onnnlyyyyyy the strooooong surviiiiiiiiive


it is funny how I used to think that there was somebody else guilty in my problems


My fault it is:)

except for some global issues, it is definitely not my fault:)

sing along

it is miiiiiiiiine and it is puuuuuuuuuuure

Tuesday, May 29, 2012


Opera, girl

what are you doing to me?

we had so much fun together

so yeah, after my ode about how awesome Opera browser is, it started to do the things I don't like

nobody likes

you know

crashing like Internet Explorer and even much worse:( every day at least three times:(

whyyyyyyy? I don't want to change you, so would you be so nice and update yourself as fast as you can, because I'm writing this post in Internet Explorer (yeah, still ignoring your Firefox and Chrome, you go, Bill!), because Opera does not even support new Blogger interface, so you can't even upload a picture


waaaake up or you are going to lose me

That Italy eurovision song

Is now my favorite one

I even sing it, when nobody listens :)

So here I am, you know, singing that song like a fish, with no sound:

I wanna thank MTV, Eurovision, Me!

it was fun doing that, shoud do that more often:)

now when I know how to use Total Video Converter

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Eurovision 2012


I don't feel guilty, I still love that freak show:)

like almost whole Estonia does

and Congratulations to our lovely Estonian guy Ott Lepland for making it into 6th place!!!


yes, no freak show, no half naked girls, no dancing, no nothing, just a strong voice and wonderful song in native language

and he still made it so well

I loved how Iceland guy sung Kuula when he announced the results:)))


and the winner of Eurovision 2012 is Sweden

I find that song being okaaay song, but I think that live version of it is not good at all:

and what about that electro crap in almost every song?

and is it allowed now, to use some light auto tune stuff?

because apparently some of them did

but like always, all of my favorites failed badly, the only song I liked, was Slovenia, and she didn't even make it to the finals:

the chorus part and the ending part are my favorite

I didn't understand how she was not in the Final while those batman gay sailors were

I noticed, that I had started to judge women the way the look, not in terms of being jealous, but in terms of "Would I be proud if it was my daughter Hjördis" and if speaking the truth, there were only 3 or 4 girls, that I liked, you know, who was not half naked and was not shaking their butts in front of whole Europe. and before you guys start saying, that is because you are not as hot as them or some shit like that, I strongly recommend you to think about would you be proud if it was your own daughter, you know, your favorite porn star is someone's daughter too? so yes, I don't like girls being or looking or dancing like sluts:) yeap, got older, started to think about my future daughter, can't watch half naked or fully naked girls doing some better-to-stay-in-the-bedroom things in front of the whole world:) you have the right to call me granny now:))) same goes for the boys, dancing half naked is not acceptable, and my Benjamin Ryan, you'd better not to do that while I'm alive:) act like a gentleman!

therefore, Slovenian girl, you are my favorite, I guess you were just too normal to be noticed

the other one I liked was Italy:

I didn't like the song, but I loooooved the chorus part and the ending part

see, you can be hot, while not being naked or dancing like you are a stripper:)

and favorite duo was from Iceland:

yet again, don't understand why such low points

those were my favorites, about the Russian grannies, of course you will like them anyway, but lets face the truth, despite the fact that grannies were adorable and open hearted, the song was bad, just bad, but the performance was good, so it gives you neutral reaction:)

and believe it or not, but I still listen to last year's France:

simply waaaay too good for Eurovision:)

this year there will be +3 songs in my playlist: Estonia, Slovenia and Italy (not sure yet about Italy)


Friday, May 25, 2012

I'm still die hard atheist

but Flyleaf makes me wanna listen to religious songs:

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


I find this man very attractive:


well obviously because his brain is working as a computer, counting every possible way the ball can go

I can't do that yet

but I will be working on it:)))

after all, I'm living in the village, I can play with the ball here:)

but what I love about him is the way he moves:) we have the similar way of moving, you know, like a bear:)))

and he is very handsome too

I am not a big fan of football, I rarely visit the games and you can throw tomatoes on me, but I do think that hockey is way more interesting and honest game and hockey fans are waaaay more intelligent than the football one

may be because the game is on ice, and people are not sweating watching it, and it just feels comfortable sitting there and supporting your team no with some rude sayings but with your whole heart

in football you can find plenty of accidents when one team fans fought with other team fans, when they killed each other, when the city was ruined after the game and so on

last year, yeah, we had Vancouver accident, but I do think, that those fans were not the true fans, but some people, who decided to support any home team, but only if they win. and that lovely people who came cleaning the city after the mess

I don't know, try to reassure me, but hockey fans are more reliable


but nevertheless Remi Gaillard is aaaweeesoooome

Tuesday, May 22, 2012


today I woke up with this song on my mind:

and yet again Angels and Airwaves make me wanna dance with arms wide open


There is a place to hide
That's in our minds
It's in the dark

It's well known that
We have a fragile heart

It's deep inside
It's has a sound that you can follow

You feel like you hit a wall
But you survive
And it was hard for you to swallow

I've been to that place before
In spite of luck

When you awake a new tomorrow

I will nooooooot surrreeeeeeendeeeeeeer



will noooooot


when you awake a new tomorrow is such a beautiful line, but I have to admit, I don't like the new AVA as much as I love the old one, something changed in their music

lyrics is still great, though


I wanna meet the real spaceman

Monday, May 21, 2012

Dubstep crap

is obviously crap


I looooooooooove this one particular song

Alex Clare - Too Close

maybe because of the lyrics

maybe because of the music (if to ignore the dubstep crap and leave only music)

but I think it is because of the beard:)))

I just wanna rub my cheek on his beard


yes, I still love the bearded men:)))

Evaporating planet

Meet evaporating planet

evaporating means that it slowly steaming

looks like comet, but that's a planet, located 1,5 ly away from our beautiful non evaporating planet, ly means light year and it is about 10 trillion kilometres

it is also one hell of a hot place to visit, because as it seen from the picture, it is really close to their star KIC 12557548 and temperature on that evaporating planet reaches 2 000 C. yeeeeah, not a perfect place to take a vacation:)

MIT and NASA scientists suggest, that this planet will be gone in 100 000 000 years

nevertheless I feel sad for this planet, just imagine, you are living in your lovely hell, minding your own business and each day you are living on a new planet, because it gets smaller every second. may be they can even take pictures of the tale behind their planet

and although 100 000 000 is long long time, it is impossibly hard to be living on a planet that eventually will die soon

like The Grey movie

makes you realize: life is nothing important after all

We are dust, nothing more. Unto this dust, we return.

"Sunshine" movie

I want

this chair

this table

this globe

this map

and, what the eff, the whole picture


Monday, May 14, 2012

I'm not dead

I'm just being lazy


I have so much information that I want to share, but because I'm in the sloth mode lately I'm just keeping it to myself


but I will get over that mode pretty soon and as for now, here you can have one beautiful picture as an apology for my absence:

you are welcome!


Wednesday, May 9, 2012

The song that scares me

years are passing by and I'm still afraid of this song :)

and I still looooooooove love looooove it

Monday, May 7, 2012

Cutie pie

Jared Leto

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Hello beautiful

that's what I say every time I come back to Tallinn and see the sea :)

"you again" when I get back to the middle of everywhere


I don't mind living here, but it is extremely hard for me to return here every week

just that first night of the week is the hardest, because my body reconstructs itself to current conditions:)

but I do love my job

we had already saved a woman, and on Friday we saved the trapped fish, yeah, we had found illegal fishing equipment and we confiscated it, it was hard to get it out of river though

so if you are missing some nets, then turn to Paide Environmental Inspection and we will give you a fine for doing that fishing :)

probably that is why nobody never comes to pick their things up :)

for the past three days I had visited Paide Vallitorn and I have to say, that museum is one of the best in Estonia, may be I will write about it later and yesterday we had visited our TV tower, and apparently we are not afraid of hight

so everything is going fine

except that I got a call from my geodesy boss, where I worked 3 years 3 at night...

but I decided it was an accidental call, so I hadn't returned it, because I know that sometimes happens :)

Friday, May 4, 2012

Songs that make me smile

although the song has one hell of a sad meaning, it makes me smile

may be because of the music

may be because I love the lyrics:

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I don't like walking around this old and empty house.
So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear

The stairs creak as I sleep,
it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes

Some days I can't even dress myself.
It's killing me to see you this way.

'Cause though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head
that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks.

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past
We used to play outside when we were young
and full of life and full of love.

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right.
Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Don't listen to a word I say
The screams all sound the same.

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

You're gone, gone, gone away,
I watched you disappear.
All that's left is a ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
there's nothing we can do,
Just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep.

Don't listen to a word I say
The screams all sound the same.

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Don't listen to a word I say
The screams all sound the same.

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore (x3)

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Hey, Mr Jerkinson!

I saw you in my dream tonight

and although I thought, that I had forgiven you, my brain probably doesn't agree with that fact, because in my dream, when you asked for my help (which was already strange, since you asked me to help you to stand up from the floor you were sitting on, apparently you had some issues with legs) and I helped you, but I held you not like a normal person would do, holding your hand and giving some support point, nooooooo, my brain decided that I don't even want to even shake your hand, therefore I held you like a cat mom holds its kittens, not in the teeth, but like using the back of your jacket:)

so here you go, my inner me is so disgusted with you, that even in the dream it doesn't want to touch your bare skinned hand, congratulations!!! that's the new level for me to be so disappointed in certain people:)

and it is sad

but nevertheless I helped :)

would you be so nice and at least try to be that great person you pretended to be?

Captain America!

no, not the one you are thinking about, but our Jack Johnson:)

Jack Johnson named captain of Team USA Hockey for 2012 IIHF World Championships

yeap, our lovely Jack from Columbus Blue Jackets is the Captain again:) he was the Captain in 2010

Good Luck!

I love you

with all of my big and caring heart

new Rise Against song:)

and ooooof coooooourse I looooooove it

love it, love it, love it

guess who is having Christmas like mood today, yes I ammm

Not yet corpses, still we rot,
Oblivious to our decay.
Drinking poison drop by drop,
Destined to die

and now I'm definitely going to see Avengers


Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Girls from different cities

today I was once again going to work by bus

and in the bus, right in front of me was sitting some girl

well, not like sitting, but more like lying, you know, when they put the seat so low, that the person sitting behind you almost can see your eyes:)

she was eating something and when she arrived to her bus stop, she simply left that chair as it was and left her garbage too, although she didn't forget to put on those huge shades, which is still popular here in the middle of everywhere and didn't forget to put that "OMG I'm so awesome, you can't even look at me, because I'm fabulous" look on her face either

don't get me wrong, I don't mind people lying in the seats or eating in the bus, but here is one very important rule: leave the things the way they were before you came. I'm always doing that, even if I take some knife from the table, I will put it back on exactly the same position where it was, because if somebody put it that way, then may be it is somehow important to them to be right there and nowhere else. I don't get those people, who leave huge amount of crap after them. I simply don't, and I'm not talking about the perfect order of things, but the order, that suits you and when somebody mess that up and then simply leave without putting it all back together, it annoys me

so while I was wondering why do girls do that, I came to conclusion, that is because they are not from the capital city. I never liked girls, I can be friendly, but most of the time I am not, but I love my girls, and surprise-surprise, they are absolutely all from Tallinn, born here and had childhood here. and it makes no difference from which part of the city. The outside girls I don't know, may be they feel like if they have to constantly prove something to somebody, like "yeah, you are from Tallinn, but look at me, I'm perfect" or something like that, and most of the times they look like if they put their best clothes on and now we have to adore them, and by best clothes I mean anything colorful and sparkling and glittering:)

it came to my mind, that many years ago in the university when we were fresh and young, we were sitting in the company of 4, 1 boy and 3 girls, and due to we didn't know each other well, the boy instantly suggested, that I'm from Tallinn and the other two from outside, and he even named the part of the country from where they can be, and believe it or not, but he was absolutely right, I hadn't understood it then, but now I kinda do:) the one girl was very loud and covered in such a heavy make up, that it was bit bizarre, the other had fake lashes, fake nails and fake hair and me, looking all that crappy, being all that polite and shy, but not really giving a single eff:)

you see, we, Tallinn born girl, we own this city, this is our city and we know it, we don't need to prove something, we don't need to act like somebody we are not and we definitely don't need to pretend that we care:) because it is our home city:)while other girls try their best to impress somebody, basically anybody everywhere

may be that is some sort of insecurity issue, but nevertheless, stop acting like village princesses and start being polite


and don't forget, Tallinn is my city

and when you own the capital city, you own the country

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

My heart

is making some strange things lately

yesterday, I couldn't sleep, because it hurt so much, like whaaat, I knooow too young to have some heart problems

but I am telling myself, that is because I was so overreacting this year, and due to that my organism is so slow, it hit me just now, when I'm all that calm and happy:)

at least I hope, I do feel like if my body is slowly shutting itself down, but the key word is slowly, and although I already told you, that I feel like if I am going to die soon, that "soon" meant "not until I will go to the All Stars game in Ohio" :)

so screw you, my strangely working heart, you will work until I decide it is the right time for you to stop:)

3 days!!!




yes my friends, just realized, that already on Friday there is the first game of ice hockey championship!!! yeeeees, so soon, so close, so awesome :)


and the best game you can name, is the gooooooood ooooooold hooooooockey gaaaaaaame