well, I ended it
I wrote one last letter where I admitted that i think i love him
and i am tired of that crap etc
It was all polite and lovely
What I did is that I specially mentioned, that if you don't want to be with me, then don't respond anything
Do you know what he did?
He responded. and do you know what he wrote? He wrote that he had been seeing his girlfriend 'til the end of May, and now he has a new sort of friend with the same birthday like I have. Do you know how it is, to feel the whole world crushing in billion little pieces? He was lying to me for more than a half a year, saying that he is alone and doesn't see anyone.
He lied to me for more than a half year
Your best friend, whom you trusted almost everything was always lying to you
Why would he write this?
He already knew that he broke my heart, why would you write this to me? Was that necessary?
I wanted to end this all being nice. Now I cry and I don't understand, why he did that to me? Was it that hard not to respond anything? Was it that hard to let me go without saying anything about his girlfriends?
WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?
why would you ruin my pure feeling?You could have stayed in my head as a person who was always good to me.
Sometimes it happens girls, you think you have the best friend in the world, and then suddenly you realize that friends can't hurt each other so bad with no apparent reason. That only can mean, that you never really was important to him. if he was lying to you for more than a half of year.
And it doesn't really matter how much you helped him during the years and how much you liked talking to him.
When you get a knife stabbed in your back from the person you trusted the most...What would you do? How would you trust people? if the person you trusted the most had betrayed you.
WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?
you could have just let me go
without hurting me even more
Today I erased him from my life. I deleted and blocked him at my msn, i put all of his email addresses to my black list and I deleted all of his sms messages, his phone number and put it in the black list as well.
Why would you hurt somebody so much?
The pain was so immediate and so fierce that Lisbeth stopped in mid-stride, incapable of movement. Part of her wanted to rush after them. She wanted to take the metal sign and use the sharp edge to cleave Berger's head in two. She did nothing as thoughts swirled through her mind. Analysis of consequences. Finally she calmed down.
"What a pathetic fool you are, Salander," she said out loud.
She turned on her heel and went home to her newly spotless apartment. As she passed Zinkensdamm, it started to snow. She tossed Elvis into a skip.
Now I have to learn how to trust people again.
Why would you do that to me?