Thursday, June 30, 2011

Being heartless

remember my endless drama?

well, I ended it

I wrote one last letter where I admitted that i think i love him

and i am tired of that crap etc

It was all polite and lovely

What I did is that I specially mentioned, that if you don't want to be with me, then don't respond anything

Do you know what he did?

He responded. and do you know what he wrote? He wrote that he had been seeing his girlfriend 'til the end of May, and now he has a new sort of friend with the same birthday like I have. Do you know how it is, to feel the whole world crushing in billion little pieces? He was lying to me for more than a half a year, saying that he is alone and doesn't see anyone.

He lied to me for more than a half year

Your best friend, whom you trusted almost everything was always lying to you

Why would he write this?

He already knew that he broke my heart, why would you write this to me? Was that necessary?

I wanted to end this all being nice. Now I cry and I don't understand, why he did that to me? Was it that hard not to respond anything? Was it that hard to let me go without saying anything about his girlfriends?


why would you ruin my pure feeling?You could have stayed in my head as a person who was always good to me.

Sometimes it happens girls, you think you have the best friend in the world, and then suddenly you realize that friends can't hurt each other so bad with no apparent reason. That only can mean, that you never really was important to him. if he was lying to you for more than a half of year.

And it doesn't really matter how much you helped him during the years and how much you liked talking to him.

When you get a knife stabbed in your back from the person you trusted the most...What would you do? How would you trust people? if the person you trusted the most had betrayed you.


you could have just let me go

without hurting me even more

Today I erased him from my life. I deleted and blocked him at my msn, i put all of his email addresses to my black list and I deleted all of his sms messages, his phone number and put it in the black list as well.

Why would you hurt somebody so much?

The pain was so immediate and so fierce that Lisbeth stopped in mid-stride, incapable of movement. Part of her wanted to rush after them. She wanted to take the metal sign and use the sharp edge to cleave Berger's head in two. She did nothing as thoughts swirled through her mind. Analysis of consequences. Finally she calmed down.

"What a pathetic fool you are, Salander," she said out loud.

She turned on her heel and went home to her newly spotless apartment. As she passed Zinkensdamm, it started to snow. She tossed Elvis into a skip.

Now I have to learn how to trust people again.

Why would you do that to me?

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Words of wisdom from House MD

"People choose the paths that grant them the greatest rewards for the least amount of effort."

Images I like

Can you fall in love with an image?

Yes you can, if it is the photo of Edward Norton:)))

Thank you, Mary Ellen Mark

I can't do nothing with my love towards nordic type boys

Thank you, Mary Ellen Mark this time for Leonardo DiCaprio:

handsome man - check

ice - check

water - check

cloudy sky - check

like what else do you need:)

cold picture, but it brings so much warmness to you

Monday, June 27, 2011



I wanna know that story about Dallas, giant horse and airport

Note to self: you shouldn't interrupt drunk people when they are trying to tell something

Sunday, June 26, 2011

St John's Eve

Here, in Estonia, we have sort of summer new year holiday

St John's eve

according to Wiki:

The Feast of St John coincides with the June solstice also referred to as Midsummer. The Christian holy day is fixed at June 24, but, in some countries, festivities are celebrated the night before, on St John's Eve.

The feast day of Saint John the Baptist was a very popular event in the ancien régime of France, and it is still celebrated as a religious feast day in several countries, like Denmark, Norway, Finland, Estonia, Latvia and Lithuania.

Bonfires are lit and effigees burned on the evening of June 23. People jump over the bonfires to prove their courage. Traditionally, three jumps cleanses one from sin and disease.

Yes, I live in the capital of Estonia, and even in the biggest city we lit the bonfires:)))

Which is not allowed btw

Last two years we were in Türi that day, which is small town in the center of Estonia, but celebrating there was boring

So this year we returned to the start point:)))

Paevälja, Lasnamäe



thaaaaats what I call celebrating

This time we were in very shortened company, basically more than half of our family were missing for some not so important reasons

Like always on this day, it was raining the whole day and only in the evening it stopped

in the local newspaper there was a note, that the big bonfire will be lit at 21 00

I live 15 minutes away from that place, so we started to move there at 20.

When we came there the bonfire was already lit, whaaaat the heeeeeell

It was extremely windy that evening, so we had to change several places to find the perfect one for our own bonfire

from this picture you can see, than not all of us were happy to look for the place:

The girl is my niece and the boy is my sister's boyfriend (well, almost husband)

We took our own wood with us, so he wasn't happy to carry it around for so long:)))

When we were looking for the place the man, who was presenter of the show there, told, that it is extremely not recommended to have your own bonfires, because of the windy weather. Buuuuut, you see, you should be careful with the words, he didn't say "it is not allowed to have":)))

Anyway, we found the place and lit our own small bonfire

In our family I have reputation of a person, who sets on fire everything and the person who never leaves any garbage on nature

So me and my sister's boyfriend created the bonfire:

*I have such thin arms

And then there were usual things like eating meat (not for me of course), making marshmallows on bonfire and because I don't eat meat, I always do myself a burned bread:)))

Unfortunately I don't have a picture, but it is when you take a piece of bread and put it on the tree branch and cook it on fire til it will turn black. But you must feel the moment, when the burned bread become uneatable:)))

I'm not gonna write in details what we did, so here are some pictures:

Our soon to be dead bonfire:

My name stone:

the pink color is not some photoshop, but I guess we burned something that gave pink flame

Then we continued our tradition of playing badminton when it is hard to see anything, and because of the weather we haven't improved our records, the wind was toooooooo strong:

When you have an ax in your hands and a sharp knife you know what kind of pictures you will be taken:

Aaaaand, here is the video of sweet couple jumping over the bonfire, after that we all jumped in different positions and we are all alive:)))


Then there were a road back home with the songs and the jokes

I have only one question left "whaaaaaat was about the huge horse, Dallas and airport?"


Updated Columbus Blue Jackets

I still don't get it, why the hell do you need to organize Draft like such a big event

Like some lady gaga show


lets add some fireworks and pop stars to get more viewers



we are lucky

do you know what?

We now have not only an amazing player but a handsome man too

Meet Jeff Carter

I hope you know who he is:)))

I always felt sorta guilty liking him while he was A in Philadelphia Flyers


I guess he still have no picture in our jersey, so i made it myself:

See, Jeff, our jersey suits you perfectly well:)))

Welcome to the family!

The bad news, that we gave our Jakub Voracek away


I liked him

And not so bad news, just a fact, we deal our Nikita Filatov too

I once wrote about him, it seemed to me he really liked Columbus, but well, when you do not give 100% of you to the team you become useless

But good help for our team from Carter:)))

Nash and Umberger I guess are now really happy

We will win!!!

Crazy Russians and hockey

For those of you who have no idea what is going on in the world of Russian hockey fans I will tell you

St. Louis Blues!



I think everyone knows that Russians are bit crazy

so here it is:

Why Russian people love St. Louis Blues

Yes, two lines of information and so far 21273 comments :)))

And it is not like some sort of very important information, nope, just that Blues has signed forward Sebastian Wannstrom

As you may notice, other news rarely get more than 20 comments and this short one got 21273 and the number is still rising


well, first of all, again, Russian are bit crazy:)))

secondly, I guess you can write whole diploma based on that post, cos it started with simple sarcastic jokes like St. Louis Blues is the greatest team in NHL eveeeeer and then it started to grow like a snowball:))) Sarcastic jokes replaced by statistics of this team, its history etc, and the more information people there got, the less rude jokes there were. I guess I can tell, that Russia had chosen the outsider team who now will always have some special place in their hearts:)))

St. Louis Blues, congratulations, Russia is now yours:)))

I'm not Russian, but I love outsiders, soooooo

(I'm so so so so so so so sorry, Columbus Blue Jackets, for my moment of weakness, buuuuut)

!!!St. Louis Blues!!!


but my heart will always belong to Columbus:))))


picture of new star in Blues:

he is kinda cutie if he gets a shorter haircut

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Rise Against


that's all


I have no words left:)))

New video:


"Make It Stop (September's Children)"

Woah, woah.

Bang bang go the coffin nails, like a breath exhaled,
Been gone forever.
It seems just like yesterday, how did I miss the red flags raised?
Think back to the days we laughed.
We braved these bitter storms together.
Brought to his knees he cried,
But on his feet he died.

What God would damn a heart?
And what God drove us apart?

What God could make it stop?
Let this end.
Eighteen years pushed to the ledge.
It's come to this,
A weightless step.
On the way down singing,
Woah, woah.

Bang bang from the closet walls,
The schoolhouse halls,
The shotgun's loaded.
Push me and I'll push back.
I'm done asking, I demand.

From a nation under God,
I feel it's love like a cattle prod.
Born free, but still they hate.
Born me, no I can't change.

It's always darkest just before the dawn.
So stay awake with me, let's prove them wrong.

Make it stop.
Let this end,
Eighteen years pushed to the ledge.
It's come to this,
A weightless step.
On the way down singing,
Woah, woah.

The cold river washed him away,
But how could we forget.
Gathering the candles, but not their tongues.

And too much blood has flown from the wrists,
Of the children shamed for those they chose to kiss.
Who will rise to stop the blood?

We're calling for,
Insisting on, a different beat, yeah.
A brand new song.

Whoa, whoa [x3]
(Tyler Clementi, age 18.
Billy Lucas, age 15.
Harrison Chase Brown, age 15
Cody J. Barker, age 17
Seth Walsh, age 13.)

Make it stop,
Let this end.
This life chose me, I'm not lost in sin.
But proud I stand of who I am,
I plan to go on living.

Make it stop,
let this end,
all these years pushed to the ledge,
but proud I stand, of who I am,
I plan to go on living

Rise Against is 100% my band:)))

I looooooooooove them with every single piece of my heart that is yet existent

Would you be so nice and come to Estonia again?

we miss you:)

About the video

I always was weird, and ooof cooourse I was bullied in my school too (in my yard company too)

But it never really was a significant problem for me, the only thing that changed is that I prefer not to talk to people at all now:))) I mean the people with whom I'm currently studying (not the elementary school ones, who bullied)

It was hard in school of course, but I knew, that is who I am and I didn't really want to change, so I stayed true to who I am with all of those weird ideas and being called ugly I survived:)

But it wasn't simple at all. At the beginning I cried a lot at home when no one saw it, cos I didn't really understand why they call me ugly and why the hell they make such a rude jokes about me. So I started to keep distance with almost everyone, except for my friends (who as I later got to know, made jokes too behind my back). I started to dress in gray, be silent and write the things my teacher wanted to read in home-tasks

Until one day when we were going to the cinema with friends and in the tram one homeless drunk old man said to his same friend pointing at me: look what a gray mouse there is

Then it hit me for the first time: why do you change yourself to be likable to people you don't even care about

They called me skinny so I wore the baggy pants so that it wouldn't be noticeable that I have some weight problems

They called me board, so i started to wear hoodies, so it wouldn't be noticeable that I have small breasts

So, kids, don't do that

It will not change anything

you will simply feel like you are not the person you actually is

In the last 2 years of school I already didn't care what grades I have, what clothes I wear, how do I look like, because I simply didn't care about anything

My Russian language teacher told me that I started to write really good compositions with a lot of new ideas and interpretations. She also added that I should be careful with that, because it may not be the things people wanted to think about. Later one boy from the other class told me that she read my compositions to them, so that they knew it was not always necessary to write the things you are expecting to be written

Btw, I ended the school with the silver medal:)))I guess being free in mind helped me with that

In university I still write crazy answers on some questions, but yet manage to get good grades

But even while getting the second higher education I don't talk to students that much

I don't know why is that, I guess somehow I'm not yet done with that school crap jokes about me, so I prefer not to get close to people so I will not get a knife in my back later.

At least I know now, that I prefer to wear black coats and black pants:))))

So, kids, don't waste your time like I did, don't let them steal years of your life. Don't run. Don't hide. Don't cry. Always fight back. But never, never stuck a knife in the back of even the worst bully in the world. Keep it clean and save your pride:) Weird people rock anyway:)

It's always darkest just before the dawn.
So stay awake with me, let's prove them wrong.

30 Seconds to Mars

Yesterday was their first performance in Estonia

I have messed up feelings about it

First of all, thank you for not being 2 hours late like other groups sometimes do


What the hell was wrong with the sound

I dunno, when they started to play I thought it was some joke performance from some local group who did sort of parody on them

Apparently I was wrong, cos it were them

For the first two songs I was literally in shock: like whaaaaaaat the heeeeeeeeeeeeeell

Our local bands do better job with their sound

But after some time I guess they managed to do something with it, cos at least I started to get to know the songs they were performing:)))

It was obvious, that Jared was ill, cos his voice was not as strong as it usually is so you may add that awful beginning and as a result have a pretty shitty concert

You may do that, but you shouldn't

cos in the end it was aaaaaaaawesooooooooooooooome

Jared did a lot of jokes, had a greeeeeeeeeeeeeeat contact with audience and was like any ordinary man out there, simple and openhearted:)))

the sound was yes, awful, but he started to play the songs like in unplugged/acoustic versions and those songs saved the night:)

About the audience

I dunno, for me it seemed like for the half of it it was the first concert ever



little girls with their little boys trying to be adults:)))

so, kids, here are some rules for you:

1) if you are standing in front of scene, then do not stand there like you are some sort of a 100 years old trees. Jump!Sing!Scream!Clap! Do something! if you want to stand, then why the hell are you not in the back? I was behind one of that couple and they literally were just standing, the girl sometimes made the movements that showed she was cold. that was all:))) oh, no, she said to her bf look, here is Jared. it seems to me she came only to have a look on lead singer. sad face

2) what about the huge people-trains? is it really that necessary to move 10 people holding their hands 10 meters closer to the stage for one song and then come back? I really didn't get why so many of them did that

3) learn the words. really. learn the freaking lyrics:)))

That's about the negative

Back to positive:

Picture will tell more:

When I finally get rid off that motionless couple i had hell of a lot good time:)))

Found one boy, who was alone too and looked like one of my friends and for the rest of the evening we somehow always stayed (it is not the right word, better jumped and screamed and sang) together

He was on my left side, in front of me were two huuuuuuuuuuuuuge backs.

and on my right side there were Russian I guess first comers, but in the end they finally started to act like you should act on concerts:)))So goooooood job, kids!:)

As you may see from the picture, there were plenty of people, but not even half as much as it were on Metallica show


I have one idea now

(of course it is not my only idea in my brain, that constantly generates something)

Why wouldn't you divide the whole area on concerts into the sectors by colors

like you take the green color and paint with it some area and put numbers like *149-159cm

then yellow 160-179

and red over 180

it will make hell of a more simple life for us, not so tall people:)))

and of course you can cross the line when there is plenty of free space but you can not stand in front of a person who is shorter than you

Yeah, yeah, I get it, that people come in companies and want to stand together so we will leave them the white zone after the red one, what about that?:)))

I loved the show:)


Grab your gun, time to go to hell

R.J. Umberger

I'm sorry, but I just had to do this:

Umberger Graduates from Ohio State

After 10 years, six summers of going back to school R.J. completed his degree in June 2011

I don't know whether they still wear those creepy hats or not, but I put it anyway


smart boy:)

Monday, June 20, 2011

My external hard drive is dead


I was sad for about an hour

but then I realized that means that now I have 320gb less reasons to go to jail!!!


and that I need to finally buy myself some sort of screwdriver set

really, my father have one, but they are all so huge and heavy

you cant disassemble hard drive with those

now I know what I'm going to give myself as a birthday gift: set of tiny screwdrivers


cos I can

still no job:(

but I will surely find it:)

and then there will be endless working days under the sun and the rain

*and you can dance with the rain, when nobody watches

I love geodesy

I really do

Every one of my mates were and are great:) I don't know how, but I'm always working with the best men in Estonia:)))

but I hate working in the forests, because usually we hurt the trees there:(((

construction geodesy is my love:)

do surveyors all over the world have some sort of special greeting? the secret combination of words?:))any special sign?maybe song? we should have that:)

Let's create some secret society of surveyors:)

The world's greatest 200m runner

Yes, you can call me that


slowest too

but I'm working on it

I still can't break my mind, who asks me "why the hell are you running?" I am pretty sure I'm one of those who never turn their backs and run, but always face the problem

May be I should try boxing:)))

so here is my way back:

my proud 200m:

my further direction:

this time I wasn't running alone

here is my new friend:

I called him Jack:)))

I have no idea what type of an insect it is and I have no intentions to get to know that, but I decided it is not fast enough to climb on me and get into my ear, so may be we can be running friends:)))

It was raining that day, but I love when it rains, so for me it is not a problem:)

I've also noticed, that on one picture there is our Alien:

As long as I remember myself, he had always been there:)))

I don't know who made him, but there were plenty of local boys who told they did him, but you never know who tell the truth:)))maybe it was alien himself after all

See, even our house is strange:)))marked by aliens:)))

Who else have that in Estonia?

I really love the place I live in:)

*maybe I should really try boxing? why not

Friday, June 17, 2011

Happy Birthday, Rick!!!

I'm so so so so so so so so so so sorry

stupid drama life period

Happy belated birthday, Our Captain!!!!!!!!


One of my favorite numbers


Happy Birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!

We will win the Stanley Cup next season:)))

Our Captain


Back to running

After waking up with that big smile

I decided, that enough darkness, let's do something

See, I have green background now

So, I continued working on my NHL Book, learning Latin language and decided to put that I-can-not-run-long-because-of-my-health thing aside

I'm not gonna show you that book yet, cos it is a gift for a friend and it is not yet finished (somehow it grew up into some afwully thick book)

My Latin is awful, but at least if i see this phrase on a surface of some ancient thing I will know what it means

Salve! Quod nomen est tibi?

Translation is: Hello! what is your name?

I probably will never see that, but who knows, may be tonight I will invent time-travel machine

Then I can use it with native speakers:)))

About the running

I got tired of almost spitting my blood out after 3km, so I decided to take it slowly

Really slowly


+100 m a day:)))

and take pictures where I'm planning to run next day, so that after for example 5km I can put it all together to remind me how much of an awesome runner I am:))

So here is the place I run from:

Here is my 100m point (I had to do it twice, because on the first time I run 170m thinking it was little bit less than 100):

And here is my further running direction:

I live in a beautiful place, don't I?:)

If there is any slow beginning runners in my vicinity, then you are always welcome to join me:)

Life is good, when you have things to do

*gone writing my CV and applying for the job

**Ohio people, do you need some surveyor/ecologist out there? cos I'm willing to move there or to Sweden, or to Finland or to Norway:)))

Rise Against

Yesterday I did something I haven't done for a while

I took my mp3 player with me to my bed

Only because I re-felt in love with this song:

Yeap, Rise Against again:)))

I always smile when I listen to this song

And yesterday I felt asleep with the smile on my face

after endless "the last time and then i turn it off"


Every line is perfect:

Breathe deep and easy, swallow this pride.
Stare at my shaking hands through bone-dry, blood shot eyes.
Clock strip the hours, I count the miles.
Will you be there waiting, awake until sunrise.

I have traveled in darkness, for what seems like days,
I, come from the sinkholes, collapsed under this weight.
I know not your sorrow, but I know mine,
So say you'll stay and dance with me tonight.

In the glow of twilight, our world is finally calm.
I felt it complete me, when the stars give way to dawn.
A language universal, but I speak not its tongue.
Is this a night that spans forever, or a dawn that never comes.

I have traveled in darkness, for what seems like days,
I, come from the sinkholes, collapsed under this weight.
I know not your sorrow, but I know mine,
So say you'll stay and dance with me tonight.

Tomorrow we might wake in servitude and silence
I will give you everything if only you would have me
Tomorrow we will sweat and toil,
Our hands will quiver caked with soil,
Tomorrow we'll give it one last chance,
But tonight we dance,
But tonight we dance!

And for this, I travel in darkness, for what seems like days,
I, come from the sinkholes, collapsed under this weight.
I know not your sorrow, but I know mine,
Just say you'll stay and dance with me tonight.


I have traveled in darkness, for what seems like days

brilliant song

the best band ever

*I still think Tim has the most beautiful voice on the Earth

Matt Buxton

Oh Internet

Endless sea of information

I found this series on one Russian page Matt

American students are kinda predictable, I guess

or may be it is because we are all the same, no matter where we live:)

anyway, among those people I found 2, that amazed me in a good way

first is Jason J. Unreadable-surname

He loves to read for fun.


during the last 5 years I met only one person who still reads just for fun

so it makes 3 of us


and about memories, I have the same problem sometimes:)

and he is looking forward to her, like how sweet is that?


so, Jason J you rock:)

*but get rid off those mustaches or grow a beard

The second one is Jackson

Yes, I laughed like insane when I read his "what keeps me up at night"

And I do think he was serious while writing this:)))

I have the same thing sometimes, when someone asks me something I usually answer normally, but sometimes my inner stopper takes a break and I write the same things:) And it is not like he is insane, it is pretty logical what he wrote, he started with ghosts and ended with pillows. Is it too weird if I can see the whole connection in his list?

I love Internet with awesome people like them:)))

Congratulations, Boston!!!

Boston deserved the Stanley Cup!

I was on the Vancouver Canucks side, mainly because I don't like Boston, cos last year they stopped my Buffalo Sabres

Yeah, since then for me they are over-sized mutant bees:)

buuuuuuut, once again, Miller is my first goalie love, but Tim Thomas is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too good to be human being

So I'm pretty sure he is alien or robot

And I had my eyes being wet when he got MVP:)awwwwwww

And Chara, aaaahhhh, that giant, who looks so kind and polite so that you cant be mad on him winning the cup

Anyway, I think Bruins hired some sort of a wizard, who put some spells on Luongo in Boston, so he couldn't play well there and then he came to Vancouver game 7 and did his job until the end.

So check the visitors lists, one of them is wizard for sure


congrats to Boston Bruins

and Vancouver Canucks, stay cool, we still love you!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

True love

You have no idea how much do I hate summer time

It is the time when I always feel extremely lonely

It is the time when I feel like nobody cares about anything (esp about me)

It is he time when I hate almost everything


I'm trying to get better

I love this picture (dont break your eyes, just click on it to see it in the bigger scale):


Dear The One

It would be perfect if you meet me like in a week or so

Make this summer the most amazing summer in my life

*and the rest of out lives too

Monday, June 13, 2011

Little mermaid?

I have one weird hobby

I subscribed to i-do-not-know-how-much mailing lists

Russian mailing lists

And I have 3 mail boxes for that: one with 1997 unopened messages, second one with 172 984 new messages and the third one with 349 902

yeap, that much

and it is not some one theme letters but I subscribed to all categories in different subscribe pages, so I'm getting letters almost about everything :)

And I'm not sitting all day and night long reading it:)))I usually read daily only one in each box

So I have no idea how, but I do think that my brain have some hidden contact with Internet, cos yesterday I had one letter

With only one short text:

Девочкам следовало бы в детстве на ночь читать "Русалочку" Андерсена вместо "Золушки", чтобы понимать одну-единственную вещь: ты можешь вырвать себе язык, ходить по острым ножам, оставить родной дом, но он так и не полюбит тебя, просто потому что ты - не та.

In my bad English it is something like:

Little girls should read Andersen's "The little mermaid" fairy tale instead of "The Cinderella" for the bedtime story to understand one single thing: you can pull out your tongue, walk on sharp knives and leave your home, but he will never fall in love with you, simply because you are not That One.

I have to admit, I cried

Yeah, yeah, I am some sort of a fluffy puffy thing lately

Man up, Jana


I'm trying

Sunday, June 12, 2011


I probably have a little alien growing in me now

Yeah, I opened one storage box because I wanted to use it and put some food there


apparently there used to be a piece of cheese for a while

and it was not vacuum box, so imagine how it looked like

And when I opened it I inhaled something

So I'm pretty sure I will have some super powers soon


or I will die

but I prefer the first option

and living without you will be harder than i thought

*if you take something that you do not know how long was not in use and who used it last - DO NOT OPEN IT :)))

Thursday, June 9, 2011


I have serious doubts whether Tim Thomas is human being or not

Space minute

One day I will be there

The International Space Station

ISS027-E-036638 (23 May 2011) --- This image of the International Space Station and the docked space shuttle Endeavour, flying at an altitude of approximately 220 miles, was taken by Expedition 27 crew member Paolo Nespoli from the Soyuz TMA-20 following its undocking on May 23, 2011 (USA time). The pictures taken by Nespoli are the first taken of a shuttle docked to the International Space Station from the perspective of a Russian Soyuz spacecraft. Onboard the Soyuz were Russian cosmonaut and Expedition 27 commander Dmitry Kondratyev; Nespoli, a European Space Agency astronaut; and NASA astronaut Cady Coleman. Coleman and Nespoli were both flight engineers. The three landed in Kazakhstan later that day, completing 159 days in space.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011


First of all: that freaking hot weather is killing me, hoooooow is it possible to have in Estonia 30C° in the beginning of June???

Not for one day, but almost for the week

Sad face

I have been having a lot of sad faces lately

It is all going to hell again

May be thats why it is so hot outside

Anyway, back to hockey

Today there was a meeting with Leo Komarov, Siim Liivik and Robert Rooba (yes, Estonian do have a lot of double letters in their names, me too)

Those are hockey players that were born in Estonia, but who currently play in Finland

And Leo is the one who plays in Finnish national team, so he was the part of winning this year's hockey championship


That was were kind of them to come to Estonia with the Cup

Because I have a lot of sad faces lately, of course something bad just had to happen

The meeting was at 3pm in Nero bar in Tallink hotel

Jana sometimes can be really stupid, cos I decided, that oooo, Tallink hotel, that must be the one in front of Viru shopping center

The big and shiny one

I was already late for 15 minutes when I got there and well, after trying to find that bar on my own, I asked one boy on reception where it is, and he sent me to the second floor, where there is a conference center. I still have no idea how could "Nero bar" and "conference center" sound the same to him.

After walking there I went back to the first floor and decided to ask women in the restaurant. You know what? That phrase will be the phrase I probably hate the most: But you are in the wrong hotel. Nero bar is in another Tallink hotel.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat the heeeeeeeell

I decided that I can still have a little chance to meet the players, so I went to the tram stop and get the tram where i needed to be

Freaking heels

I was already an hour late, so when I realized where must i go, I took off my shoes and almost run towards that hotel

*note to self: when it is 30 degrees outside for several days, the roads are really really really hot, I guess I collected some road surface on my feet. That was painful

**another note to self: stop trying to be more woman-like

Anyway, when I got there the conference was already over, but the players and the cup were still there

And then I saw him

Robert Rooba

tadaaa, and add some shining signs over his head

I guess spending most of the life on ice does something good to your beauty

All ice-hockey players look so goooooood (if they don't have porno mustaches), but Rooba is now pronounced by Jana as the hottest junior player in the world

yeah, he is only 17

Anyway, got the signed cards, some pictures, and now I have the sign of Leo on my Finnish Hockey Hall of Fame money holder.

Here is the picture of us:

From the left:

The most handsome junior hockey player in the world Robert, The World Championship Cup with some girl, Leo and Siim

The boys were sooooo sweeeeeeeeet

All so polite, so kind

And yeah, even with +5cm I still look like hobbit

But i realized that i love being short, so no more heels for me

It was great so see a lot of kids there with Estonian hockey team jerseys


Btw, that cup is pretty heavy, not for the men though, but surely for me it was


I wish I had been there on time, so I could ask all of my billions of questions

Maybe next time


*and had a hug from the most handsome junior hockey player in the world

**and from IIHF World Championship winner Leo Komarov too

***and I had really good time being in the bar filled with hockey lovers

****and I wish you were there too

Thursday, June 2, 2011

127 hours

I haven't watched any movies for a while

But today I finally decided to see 127 hours movie

mostly because of Danny Boyle genius mind


I think I liked it

I'm not sure though

Most of all of the things Aron did were great

I like watching movies one step forward, it is like you see what movie character did and instantly thinking what will you do next. According to the movie, I have similar way of thinking like Aron

Sometimes I even started to laugh, like noooo waaaaay he will do it as I would do and he did

Spoiler alert


Don't read it if you have no idea how this movie ends


The only thing that was missing, is I would have surely try to find "the weak point/the breaking point" I dunno how it is in English. The point which you can hit hardly and the solid object will be not so solid anymore and if I will notice that in some point I will get more deeper holes, then I will continue to hit that point just to try to break the stone in any point.

Secondly, I don't really understand why having a small rock in your hand and shitty knife you wouldn't break your bone earlier. And why would you cut almost half of your hand instead of trying to cut it in the weakest/thinnest part available?

Thirdly, I think i would try to emmmmm add liquid products of my functioning organism directly to the water I have so that I would not have to drink it later concentrated with no water.

And I would surely try to make some sort of a lifting mechanism, not the one he did, but something having leverage, I'm sure he tried that, but I haven't seen it in the movie

One more question: why the hell he didn't eat ants?

After all, the movie was greeeeeeat

Aron is probably made of stone too, after 5 days with no water and food he was able to cut his arm off and still manage to climb down those rocks to find some help, well thaaaaaats a maaaaan

Strange enough but I haven't cried in the end like I usually do. I was happy that he is alive and still strong:)

Emotional movie, funny too:)those close to being crazy state of mind jokes about radio were awesome.

Btw, in real life Aron is much much much much more handsome than Franco

manly handsome:)

Franco in that movie, I dunno, it is my personal opinion like always, but every second of that movie I wanted to take a razor blade and shave those porno mustaches off. Which btw somehow hadn't changed during 127 hours.

Sorry, James:)but you played really well

Movie was great, but I will not gonna watch it twice

Cos it was simple too, you don't have to re-watch it to find little details that add new meaning to the plot (like with my genius Shyamalan)

8/10 for watching the first time

probably 5/10 if somebody will watch it second time

*I have never understood why the hell would to even for a day be somewhere where there are no water, no plants, no life. Like African people, for me it is some sort of a mystery, you live in the desert with almost no water, but still producing babies like bunnies, how much do you have to hate your kids, if you want them to live in the exact same horrible place like you do and your whole life is basically search for the water. Mystery.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

My new dream

Currently I'm planning to get the driver's license, because I need it for working

so being all that exited about cars I found nothing better than falling in love with reeeeally expensive bike

meet my dream bike:

CR&S DUU Deperlù (Solo)

in standard version €19.900


now I have 19 890€ left for buying that bike


I should get a money box specially for that

or considering it's cost it will be easier to get an extra bank account:))))

anyway, that bike will be mine

fooooooor sure


The swimming season

My swimming season is opened


bit too late, but this spring was kind of cold

the air temperature today was close to +30 and the water temperature +8

yeap, +8

and that was soooooo refreshing to swim in the sea, when you can practically feel the air around you, because it is so hot and heavy

and we were not alone

what was strange, that the kids were freely swimming in the sea, while their parents were standing on the beach:)))

aaaaaand stop complaining, you little people, who think that after their Turkey or Egypt trip our sea is extremely cold and dirty

it is not

we are living in the north, so get used to our weather already:)))

the water was perfectly fiiiineeee

lets go swimming

you know how to get in touch with me



The Baltic Sea rocks:)